Life is so full of contradictions. One moment your happy. Your life seems to be going so well. Everything seems to be perfect, then just then you fall down. Everything became a mess. family devastated, relationships broken. The life you seemed to have is crumbling down before your eyes.

All of us suffer. We may differ in what we experience but all of us will go through adversities. In James Chapter1, the Bible thought us to rejoice when we go through trials because it helps us become mature. Now in James Chapter 5, the Bible is telling us to be patient in times of hardship.

When we have problems, most of us question "Why is it happening?" Sometimes we blame other people for our problems. Some would just fall down and give up. I know how hard it is to suffer, believe I know. When I was in High School, just starting my faith, my family suffered a major trial. I couldn't help it. I was devastated, so devastated that I attempted to take my own life. I cut myself a few times. I was lucky because I didn't hit a major artery and the cuts weren't so deep, so I survived to tell you my story. But I didn't want to go to school and let other people know what I did. Everytime I had to go out, I would wrap my wrists and make it look like I had just sprained both my arms. When asked, I would say that I fell and landed with both my hands causing the sprain. Aside from my family, only a few trusted friends knew of what I did. I'm 21 years old now, so it was what... about 7 or 8 years back, but I still have few scars left on my wrist. I've never tried to do it again, though I've thought of it few times back then. I was blessed to have some good Christian friends who guided me to strengthen my faith and who made sure I wouldn't try to do it again.

Now years passed by, when I'm in trial, I pray to God and lift to him everything. It might take sometime to pass but patience and right attitude would lead you to have peace in times of adversity. Look at the life of Job. He suffered a lot but he never gave up on his God. God is merciful and compassionate. He is faithful those who are faithful to him. A few months back, my family suffered another major trial. I prayed fervently to God, lift up to him everything and trusted him with all my heart. I never gave up the fight and fall down onto pressure and stress. I never gave up ton trusting God. You know what, even though we were on a major trial, I have this peace in my heart that everything would be alright. And everything did turn out ok.

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